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[So. I have been on T for almost 7 months now. I've been having a lot of difficulty with medical transition as I've simultaneously been having a lot of health problems in addition to T causing some extra health concerns. But I hadn't really anticipated emotional problems. Most of what I see and hear when people go on T is along the lines of 'I'm more emotionally stable now' and 'I'm a happier person' and so on.

As of late, I feel more emotionally unstable than I've been in a long, long time. I've never had a chronic problem with depression, and my demeanor was fairly mellow and low key as it would take a lot to cause me to be seriously upset. Now I'm constantly depressed and I feel almost manic at times. Every little thing upsets me. Every conclusion or solution I come to is radical and drastically inflated out of proportion. I want to hurt myself every time I make a mistake or something goes wrong. I can be happy, and afterwards I come back down again. Depressive seems to be my default.
I've been this way for about 3 months, it didn't start off as serious, but it's taking more as time goes on to reach one of my happy periods, and they're becoming less frequent and not as long. My depression is starting to really affect me.

Consequentially, my period also stopped 3 months ago. I did not make this connection until I had to see a specialist about a problem I was having. [The problem was I felt like I had a bladder infection but I didn't...o__-] It was explained to me that post-menopausal women sometimes have this problem to after the flow of estrogen decreases and the lining of the bladder becomes thinner and feels irritated. It was possible that testosterone shut down my ovaries and that could be what was causing the problem.
And I got to thinking... suddenly my ovaries stop working, there's not as much estrogen in my system, and my body has this new hormone [testosterone] circulating about it now. It's like I'm going through puberty...uhh...again. Only boy puberty this time. So it would make sense that I would be a little hormonal? It DOES make sense, but I haven't heard many complaints about it...
Female puberty didn't make me hormonal, and neither did my monthly. I didn't get PMS ever. I was pretty much an emotional flat line all through school. But maybe this influx of hormones is affecting me differently? And maybe my body is still getting used to it? I mean, it's only been 3 months since I've stopped bleeding... maybe my moods will balance out with time?

I'm trying not to worry too much, but the depression is really starting to cause a problem. Keep in mind there are other factors that could be facilitating my moods. I just don't think they would have been influencing me this way before.]

[I started out on .5 mg which is what I'm still on. I haven't changed at all, except I was supposed to increase it to .75 mg a while ago, but I was too scared because I didn't want changes t happen fast enough that my dad would notice.
I thought of the possibility that maybe my dosage is too LOW. Because, I mean, if there's not the normal amount of estrogen being made anymore, and my testosterone is ALSO low, I think that not enough hormones would be a problem too.
I had a blood test done but I don't know the results yet because umm.. I left the country before I got them. ^^ I'm smrt.]

I'm going to jump on the band wagon and say hormonal problem. People who for one reason or the other have to play with their hormones tend to have, I don't know what to call it except a learning curve. I'm going to agree and say the dose might be a bit low. But that's a barely-educated guess.

I'm going to reitterate what one person told me about testosterone when they had to take it for a medical problem "it was as if every part of me was amplified and any thing I would have felt, I felt more" so perhaps it is a conflation of what you /would/ feel, with the low dose, but also the very fact that there is more in your system.

The endocrine system is a funny little thing. Worry, yes, but not too much because it's probably something you can get under control.

[I think this is almost exactly what I'm feeling right now, only I couldn't put it into words correctly. Thanks for doing it for me. :3

Thanks guys. I think the next shot I have is going to be .75 mg. We'll see how I feel after that. I have to have my next blood test around November, so I think the timing would work out alright.

Kokushi, you didn't by chance have PCOS or something like it did you? I have a friend who had to take estrogen because of it and it made her so intensely dysfunctional, I felt so bad for her.]

[Haha, yeah, don't worry... I've been to the doctors A LOT lately in the past few months. Plus I am being medically monitored on T.

You're right, I just don't hear as much about the negative emotional side effects, whether they are just at first while the hormones are all balancing out or whether it lasts longer. But it makes sense that all emotional side effects won't be positive.]